Education was something that I have always enjoyed! Back to school time makes me sad, when I myself, do not have new notebooks and a backpack full of texts and the excitment of starting new classes and learning new things. Right after high school I attempted to go to the local community college with the intention of getting my teacher's degree while minoring in pyschology. After one year I stopped going because it was more important to pay my rent and hang with my boyfriend then make time for school so I got a real job. Fast track 8 years later, i went through a nasty divorce and really began examininng my future and career choices. I quite my job and went back to school full time. I soon learned that the teaching program no longer included the option of minoring in pysch. So I had to pick another concentration.
Being a single mom with two children to support I felt pressure to complete my degree and get on with my life. I couldn't really keep pretending to be a teenager much longer now could I? I chose history, because I was good at it, it interested me and i really liked most of my professors. Yet, the thought of only teaching history all day really did not excite me.
In my last year at New Paltz I stumbled upon their Women's studies classes. My first class was Queer in the USA taught by Professor Peri Rainbow. It was the first class at New Paltz that I felt like I fit in, where everyone fit in! From there I took more and more Women's studies classes, but felt that since i was so close in graduating that I shouldn't change my major. I was a grownup after all!! I should know what I want to do with my life at this point?? right??? I had intended on returning to New Paltz to get my Masters Degree but now I was torn if teaching was the right fit for me. Professor Rainbow got me connected with SAFE Homes of Orange County where I was able to intern and really get a hands on experience working with a non-profit advocacy group. I fell in love! During the fall after my intenship I had Walker and now fast forward two and a half years later I still haven't decieded what I want to be when I grow up!! Eventually I am going to have to get a job, eventually I am going to have to make a living. So I figured that now would be a good time as any to start a Masters program, on line. But today, my circumstances for returning to work are a lot different. Today, I have a child with special needs that I want to stay involved with.
Graduate school is A LOT of $$, but I know that it is something that I want to do, that I must do, for myself.
So.... what shall I do? Just bite the bullet and get started, (it does excite me to start taking classes again) or should I wait until the little ones are both in school and actually find a campus program? Will that ever really be possible? Is taking more student loans for my higher education a smart move? or will i just be putting us more in debt?
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