Running thoughts

• I really need to lose more weight so that I am not running all this weight around!
• How many dead frogs can be on one road?
• Should I only wear one ear phone so that I can hear what is going on around me?
• Do deer really attack?
• Has that car passed me five times already? Maybe I should carry mace!
• Exactly how am i supposed to be breathing? Deep breaths? Belly breaths? Oh, screw it!  I'm happy just to be breathing!
• Car! Car!  I'm right here!!!  You see me right???????
• Man, I'm getting better at this!  10k here I come..... okay wait... who's idea was this?
• This is great therapy!

Scratch, scratch

This July will mark the seventh year that I quit my full time job in corporate America to return to school.  I guess you could say I have the seven year itch!  I am itching to get on with my career goals, itching to experience how such a monumental decision can really impact my life. 

It wasn't an easy choice, I had a good paying job in which I had been at for almost eight years.  I was comfortable but I knew something was missing.  Sure I had determination and drive, but the path that lay in front of me did not fit into the view I had of myself. I didn't like who I was becoming. 

After some serious soul searching, I put in my notice and begged my father for a job bartending.  I knew that with school and two children, I needed to make the most amount of money in the least amount of time.  It fit the bill for the next three years.

But then life happens.

Today, I am back in grad school. I am hoping that my gaining more educational credentials I will be able to get in the door at a non-profit organization.  I am hoping to find one that serves the community and implements education in some form. This may sound all well in good but I can't find a job.  My issue now is that its been 7 years since I've had a full time job, so the gap in my working history is huge.  I am in a swampy mess.  My resume for corporate America is dusty and my "new" ambitions aren't evident.  I've been advised to volunteer at an organization that I feel strongly about, but haven't figured out how to put more hours in my week to be able to do so.

So here I sit, with a rash that is spreading... scratch, scratch......

Orgasm Inc.

Last night I had the pleasure of viewing a documentary showing of Orgasm Inc.  by Planned Parenthood of the Hudson Valley. I wasn't especially sure what to expect, but since my dream job would be working for the organization I figured it would be a good opportunity to make some contacts and learn a few things.  I dragged a few of my friends there with promises of soft porn, plus it was free.

The documentary took nine years to put together and began as an editing assignment.  The assignment was to make a soft porn video for women to watch in order to track their sexual response while using an experimental cream for Female Sexual Dysfunction. It evolved into a video questioning the exploitation of women's sexuality and the direct link to corporate pharmaceutical greed. 

Without ruing the movie, because I think it is something that any woman or man should really watch, I have a few keys points that I took away from it.

• It is discerning that the drug companies in the United States must first characterize a disease in order to market the drug for it.  This puts the control in the hands of those that are guaranteed to profit from it.
• Statistics are used to mislead people either by exaggeration or omission.
• The increase of clinics in the United States that preform labia reconstruction surgery is a testament to the continuous need of American women to fit the "perfect" mold of beauty. And the price tag associated with it, also keeps the economically advantaged in control of that image.
• Women, overall, are still unaware of their own body and clueless as to what "normal" is. 
• Society still has a need to pop a "pill" in order to cure all problems as opposed to becoming more educated and open.

Please take the time to check out the film's web site here.