I am a mother of three boys and one girl, my youngest son Walker is developmentally delayed with no diagnosis, I am divorced and re-married, living life as I never imagined. I may be cynical, but I try to see the world as it is.... no frills but plenty of laughs.
With 2011 fast approaching I have been thinking a lot today about New Year's Resolutions. I must admit that I really don't believe in them. I have always felt that if you wanted to change something about yourself you should just do it! Making a list on a certain date doesn't hold you any more accountable for yourself than any other time of the year. But lately, I have been thinking about different things that I would love to change about myself. I am an eclectic personality. Some days I am in my mother role, others, my professional side takes over but mostly I think about how I would want to be more alternative. When I say alternative I mean I have visions of joining a commune, or camping across America during the summer. There are so many things I want to do and experience but my current lifestyle doesn't really warrant them. Sure, I have a compost pile and I recycle, but that just doesn't feel like enough. There is a woman I have encountered at my job that I think is the symbolic sense of who I want to be. She has dreads and is very creative and makes jewelry. Its not really the hair or the clothes that i envy its what she represents to me: an alternative life style. But exactly how does one go about changing yourself? I think its more about incorporating little by little, the important things into your life and slowly you evolve. Maybe I've just romanticized about it and when the day comes and I am plowing my own fields and milking my cows, it won't feel so alternative. For now though, I will keep composting, keep recycling and allow myself to make resolutions all throughout the year.