It's my party and I'll cry if I want to...

Another year and I still get dissappointed. One would think by now I would be over it! I expect it, but that doesn't soften the blow. I'm done explaining it, I'm done pretending I'm fine with it. But the question now is, what can i do about it anyways? I cried and then I bought my own damm flowers. I thought about dumping my kids off and running away. Pumping breast milk and saying "see ya". I do have the ATM card!! No one could trace me, just go and find a nice hotel with room service.... close the shades. order a pay per view movie and sleep!! Now that would be a great birthday!!! Delusional I know! Eventually I would have to come home, and no one would be happy with me!! So, here I sit, feeling sorry for myself.... I'm not looking for condolences, heck, only a couple of people read this anyways!!! LOL! Just venting....

you would cry to, if it happened to you!